2010...

Happy 2010!!

In this brand new year, signing in, ur Kumudha Sivan... I vow to blog as much as I can in this year.. :-)

I want another new year...

I'm juz sick of everything and everyone... I want a fresh start again, start everything from beginning... Another new year perhaps... I'm getting hurt,torn to pieces every single day, every single moment... I juz hate my life... U know wat I really want, go bak to my home.. Study in MMU Melaka... This juz aren't my place... My people.. I wanna go jump sumwhere, but i dont know where... But its too coward to do tat rite? U know wat i really miss? I miss my life.. I miss my old self... I miss all the happiness that i used to have... Now, there's only tears evryday... This is not wat I want in my life... More than dreaming to be a succesful person, i alwiz dream to be a happy person... But today, turning back to the long way behind me, I realise I was losing something... The most precious thing that I alwiz had since I know the world.. Happiness... I'm no longer having it... It flew away, bit by bit... N now, there's only traces of it left... Wat should I do? I cant take any steps, coz every single step tat I take, will hurt more people than making people happy... i want my life back.. I want my old self, my old happiness.... Plz give it back to me... Plz..

Diary

Since i join MMU(foundation), I can count how many times I actually write diary... Coz I hardly sad, depressed, hurt and feel like writing. More than that I have ppl arund me that I can tell anything... But after a long time, I feel its wrong.. The only thing tat will last and accompany me til the end is my diary... Nothing else.. So, last week, when I went back for Cheng Thiruvila, i brought an empty diary from home... My last year bday present from Yogginy.. I knew tat the only thing tat can give me satisfaction, a feeling of relieved and peace is writing... Eiteher blog,diary or juz anywhere.. But I tend to forget it all this while.. I was too busy enjoying myself and caching up wif studies till I forget my greatest passion since young... writing.. A quote says, sometimes in life, we run to fast till we didnt realise the ppl around us.. We only realise their presence when we fall down and they stop to pick us up.. :)Its one of the most beautiful words.. Make it a habit to smile to everyone.. put some time aside to talk wif loved ones... spend some time to eat together... stop to smell the rain water... If u walk or run too fast in life, u might leave behind life's most beautiful gift.. I realised it now... Hope evryone does...

* If u really love someone, let him/her go, if they cum bak to u, they are meant for u... :)

Today in history...

There is time in life, when u say someting, u felt why did i tell that.. U felt want to forget everything...U feel like wanna withdraw wat u said.. reverse the time back.. But sometimes, u feel like u'l neva wanna forget what u heard... N never forget ur promises made... N neva wanna withdraw wat u said... there's no regret... words stay as words... Happiness come.... Hopefully it will never go... no reverse, no withdraw.. be with me forever... Both happiness and you... :)

There is time ..

There are times in life,
u felt too hurt ... till u think there's nothing more hurting than this...
there are times in life,
when u think this wont go anyway...but it went..
there are times in life,
ppl touched ur heart so much till u cried,like u neva did b4,
there are times in life,
when u misses someone, u wonders, if u can miss any1 more than that....
there are times in life,
where words are felt too few...n vocabs too low...
there are times in life,
where action speaks greater than words,
there are times in life,
you juz want to go out n catch raindrops,
there are times in life,
u juz want to sit n stare,
coz in life,
there is time for everyting.....

so........
stop n smell the roses,
shake a tree's branch after rain,
blow bubbles,
catch raindrops,
spend time to smell the rain water,
stare at the full moon,
count the stars
send a offline msg tellin u misses someone,
n spend one second to smile! It's free.... in case u dont knw... lol..

Life offers u so many things that are great n free.... But we forget to see it... Hopefully dis post reminds u..
Have a great day... I juz had one.. :)

I'm young, minus h...

My first debate!

After being away from the debating arena for such a long time, I was given a golden opportunity by my debate team... Thanks to Myer, Syukri, Dheepan, Syafiqa n Mas... It was great.. Debat keushawanan antara IPT 2008 was my first step, bak into debating arena.. I had a great time in UiTM Shah Alam...


We, in semifinal, against UIAM 1..


Me, as the 3rd speaker, in semifinal...

Debate was great... After leaving debating for such a long time, i realise one thing.. My passion towards debate never decrease... Once a debater, always a debater! :)

-I'm young, minus h-

The journey in between what you were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place..

"The journey in between what you were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place...."

Many of us doesn't seem to realise that there is a journey in between who we was in the past n who we are actually becoming now... And we also forget to realise that 'LIFE' actually lies within the journey.. N the way you are living today, the things we do, the problems we face, the happiness we shared, the people we meet, all the up n downs, are the dance of life...

N this dance of life do change a person, either to better or to worst.. But it do change.. Heard of " People change over time" .... wondering why i mention this controversial phrase here? Coz the journey between who you were and who you are becoming is a period of changes.. N the changes depends on the dance of life.. small thing like the problems u faced n the people u met will make a great change...

The problems u faced will get you ready to face the upcoming obstacle.. N the people you met, certainly do make a difference... Coz there are some people in life, that when u meet them, u change... N u urself dont know why... Coz this people are meant to be in ur dance of life, to be part of the journey from who u was n who u r now becoming.... :)

-I'm young, minus h-

Wonderful words....

Wonderful words...

Maybe we have to meet a few wrong
people before meeting the right one so
that when we finally meet the right
person, we will know how to be
grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes,
another opens, but often times we look
so long at the closed door that we
don't see the one which has been opened
for us.

The best kind of friend is the kind
you can sit on a porch and swing with,
never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best
conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what
we've got until we lose it, but it's
also true that we don't know what we've
been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never
an assurance that they'll love you
back! Don't expect love in return; just
wait for it to grow in their heart but
if it doesn't, be content it grew in
yours.

It takes only a minute to get a
crush on someone, an hour to like
someone, and a day to love someone, but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades
away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright. Find the
one that makes your heart smile

There are moments in life when you
miss someone so much that you just want
to pick them from your dreams and hug
them for real!

Dream what you want to dream; go
where you want to go; be what you want
to be, because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you
want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make
you sweet, enough trials to make you
strong, enough sorrow to keep you
human, enough hope to make you happy.

Always put yourself in others' shoes.
If you feel that it hurts you, it
probably hurts the other person, too.

The happiest of people don't
necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lives for those who cry,
those who hurt, those who have
searched, and those who have tried, for
only they can appreciate the importance
of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a
kiss and ends with a tear.
The brightest future will always be based
on a forgotten past, you can't go on
well in life until you let go of your
past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one who is smiling and
everyone around you is crying.

I came over this message in Friendster bulletin, n now i'm posting it specially for those people who mean something to me, to
those who have touched my life in one
way or another, to those who make me
smile when I really need it, to those
that make me see the brighter side of
things when I am are really down, and to
those whom I want them to know that I appreciate their presence in my life.
Some people do make a difference in another person's life.. N you, the one reading this now, do make a difference in my life.. Thanks for making the difference..:)

- I'm young, minus h-